I have done a pretty shabby job of sharing this little dude with the blogosphere. It's not due to any lack of Mimi pride or delight in his dearness and cuteness.
I think I've been doing a pretty shabby job on several fronts, actually. I could list them all for you, but that would only serve as a reminder to myself. And to be honest, I am not needing any further reasons to be bummed.
I don't know about the rest of you, but when I'm in the dumps, I don't like being around myself. And I feel even less like inflicting my gloom on everyone else.
Doesn't it seem like life goes through phases? I've been here before. I recognize the scenery. I pretty much hate it.
And I also know that in viewing life from the dumps, once I've got these gloom-tinted glasses firmly in place, it's darned near impossible to see anything as being "...noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent or praiseworthy." (Phil 4:8) Each setback, each area of failure on my part, each disappointment, is magnified and in turn justifies the depression I feel. I sink a little lower into the mire, and it's a little harder to get out.
I wish I could find some glowing spiritual application to make....some pointed discourse on how my hope is planted firmly on the Solid Rock. I know these things intellectually, but my heart is not there right now. And I'm disappointed in myself about that, too. bluhhh...
So whatever landscape imagery works for you -- desert, valley, pit -- that's where I am right now. Not asking for sympathy or solutions -- just not sure how bloggy I'll be. It's hard to write about struggles, and not much fun to read about them, either.
Really, consider it a favor.
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I am so sorry you are in the dumps. You know that I know how that feels, and can relate to you on all emotional fronts, even if I can't sympathize directly with the sources of your condition. You can call me and vent...
At least you have some very cute grandbaby pictures.
Is all you had to say that you wish you had a master bath? :)
Yeah, I know how you feel. My mouth got ahead of me a few nights ago, and I said something that came across as snappy (although I didn't mean it the way it sounded...and I KNOW it sounded snappy) to a friend. I came home and told Patrick, "I don't feel very good about myself right now."
Sometimes this being human thing is overrated.
That is one CUTE baby!
Cute baby for sure. Makes me smile. Love the cheeks. So glad to hear from you in whatever state- or pit or desert- you're in. Praying for energy and motivation to put on foot in front of the other. Thanks for blogging. Life isn't always rosy and eloquent, blogging shouldn't have to be either.
Ruthie - know we are here for you if you are on cloud nine or in the valley. I know how depression can be & the toll it takes on mind, body & spirit. I will pray for you.
BTW, what a beautiful baby!
(in response to your comment)..You are most welcome! I really do hope you are feeling better! You are in my prayers.
I never myself saw Phantom on Broadway. I live very close to NYC, but I never go there. I may have tomatoes thrown at me because I just don't like "the city" as us Jersey people call it. IMO, it is just too busy, fast-paced & expensive. LOL! I remember back when I was in HS, I saw a version of it on TV. During that time, a friend in high school went to the show and then got the soundtrack & that is when I first heard the song. It is a very good soundtrack, and this is coming from someone who doesn't particularly care for 'show-tunes'.
The iPod is wonderful, thanks for asking. I LOVE it! I thought it was going to be so complicated to figure out but it was really easy. I listen to it at lunch time in the back room and tune out the office in the distance. LOL!
Did you get yours back yet? Now I know what you mean by missing it so much! I hope you get it back soon!
Hi Ruthie, Lovely, adorable baby! Only thing I regret is to have started with children too late (we have two). Life is chaotic often and I don't think the house has ever been clean/tidy since but love them to bits. Stopped by to say hello from Scotland via YOY's blog. We look after two grandmothers with dementia - one Vascular,one Alzheimer's - and I completely empathise. I'm spinning plates 24/7 and crash quite a few! Sometimes you have to laugh and sometimes I have a Very Long Bike Ride to Get It Sorted! Dont feel guilty about unbloggability. It'll be great to read you back and whenever's just fine. Tilly x
Just letting you know I can relate. I went through a prolonged depressed period about 12 years ago, and no, it is not easy at all, esp. on a believer who is supposed to know the source of all joy. Someone sent me a quote the other day that makes a lot of sense to me: People who see the glass half-empty are just really, really thirsty. Isn't that good? Maybe you just need some time to spend with the Lord, doing whatever re-charges your batteries. It's different for everyone. But it will. Just know people (like me) care.
What a precious baby! I have nothing new to add except to say that I, too, can identify, and I empathize. I'll pray for you.
Well, if I can just say, I've appreciated you this past week and all of your words of encouragment. Thanks for being so positive.
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